A Prayer to My Dearest

God,



Please fill my heart with faith from the purest of sources…a faith that can’t and won’t be denied in terms of my marriage to my beautiful wife. And please…not a moment too soon nor a moment too late…fill my wife’s heart with the same faith for we are on differing sides of this pain and it is unrealistic of me to expect her to be blindly trusting of me.

Bring to us a strength that no one may take from us and a renewal so intense that we shall never sink back into old patterns of mistrust, miscommunication, and mishandling of one another’s hearts and feelings.

Help me to ascend from a place of being my wife’s convenience to being her primary source of strength and security for this is what a wife expects from her knight. Patch my armor with the strongest of metals to protect my soul that resides underneath.

Let us engage in creative endeavors together whether those endeavors take us to foreign shores and reach thousands or whether said endeavors are confined to our kitchen, our back yard, or our bedroom and only reach our own hearts.

Give to me your grace and forgiveness and when my wife is ready, extend to me her forgiveness as well…but do so only on her timeline.

Stand with my wife every second of the day so that she is never alone through her healing and regardless of where that healing may take her. Should that healing take her away from me, help her to know that she will fill a place in my heart until the end of my days and I will look for her again when my days should start over. For it is understood that my meeting her twelve years ago was not the first time that we had danced. Help me to remember this deeper connection to her so as to never allow my shallow ego to cause her pain again in this life or the next.

From this moment on, I put my life and my relationship with my wife in your hands to align it with the highest standards of this universe so that they may serve as an illuminating example of life, love, and happiness.

Let it be done and let it be known.

Your humbled servant.

~Me