The Silence - Best Friend or Worst Enemy?

Sometimes silence can be deafening and violent and yet other times so peaceful and healing. I suppose the determining factor is when you achieve a place of stillness, can you sit with yourself and know that you have done all as you should or at least with your your best efforts for all of those around you. As I have not, the silence has not been good to me of late.

So the success of my journey to Forgiveness (be it forgiveness of self or forgiveness from those that I have hurt) can be measured directly in how I feel when I sit still. And as such, this initiative is just as much about learning to sit still and listen to myself, something that I have forgotten to do over the past decade in the hustle and bustle of growing family, growing responsibilities, and growing illusions of success.

To My Dearest I extend my deepest apologies and greatest sorrow for not focusing on myself enough over the years in order to maintain a resemblance to the self that you fell in love with 12 years ago. This is an opportunity and a calling to change that about myself...no matter the outcome. This is an opportunity to make silence my friend instead of my enemy.

Experience is not what happens to a man; it is what a man does with what happens to him.