Friday, August 7, 2009

Asking for Miracles - Lost and Found

Sometimes we ask for miracles not really knowing what that miracle will look like nor when it might arrive. The Universe has a funny way of delivering when and how you least expect it. There are many miracles in my life and I suppose I asked for all them in one way or another and in keeping with Universal Law, those things that were asked for just sort of migrated their way into my life, caring little about my timeline for arrival either expressed or implied when putting my request in.

I must say that sometimes the Universe can surprise us and seem to deliver in a bigger, grander fashion than we could sometimes even try to imagine or put our minds around. My Dearest and I had an amazing experience last weekend in our quest to find a miracle and so I felt the need after a hiatus from blogging to share this experience to help get myself back on track.

My Dearest and I have been "doing the work" so to speak of trying to find trust again after my betrayal, which is a challenge to say the least. Many exhausting conversations have been had in an effort of picking up the pieces and trying to salvage our relationship. After a couple of hours of some painful talking the other morning at the lake, I sort of threw my hands up in frutration asking My Dearest, "What do you need, what are you expecting to happen before you can truly move forward from this".

Her reply, a very cute one...but one that caught me off guard was, "A Miracle!". My Dearest needed a miracle to heal her heart and who could expect any less, right?? So I think to myself and realize that the only problem is I'm not qualified to deliver a miracle which clearly takes this out of my hands. Nonetheless, I told her "well then lets go make a miracle today"...was the best answer I could come up with although I don't mind sharing with you that I could feel the beads of sweat starting to form on my forehead in knowing the great task at hand and my likely impotence at delivering.

So I prayed...no secret that I prayed for a miracle, any miracle, THE MIRACLE that My Dearest needs to be reflective of some sign or endorsement to build some faith and trust upon. Ive been praying a lot lately and with good results, but I must say that on this day I would do exceptionally well as someone in the heavens was smiling upon me and My Dearest Love.

So we head out on the boat with family and friends to do some wakeboarding and hang out at cool island in the middle of the lake known as Pine Island. I'm the first to wakeboard behind the boat and so I jump in the water but quickly realize that my wedding ring and necklace is still on and so I swim back to the boat to hand them to my Brother in Law to put away. Needless to say my wife has a panic attack while I am handing them off in 30 foot of murky water, knowing that with one slip...those precious items would be lost forever. She was very vocal about this and I didn't blame her although tehre was certainly some bite to her advice!

So we make it Pine Island later and we are hanging out throwing footballs and frisbees, letting the kids play and swim around and I migrated my way over to where My Dearest was standing. I noticed right off that her anniversary bands were on her finger but her wedding ring was missing and so I brought that to her attention. The bewilderment in her face at that moment was not comforting and we both immediately jumped in the boat to scarmble around looking for her ring. I had seen it on her finger in the water earlier and so I think we both felt in our minds that it wasn't going to be found in the boat. More specifically, in my mind, the ring was at the bottom of the lake somehere and flat out wasn't going to be found. While she is looking around, my knees are buckling and I'm starting to wonder what this may be a sign of...Dear Universe...what are you trying to tell me?? My mind is racing and I am telling Elizabeth that the ring is gone with practically no chance of finding it. My Dearest is even starting to go so far as apologizing for the lost ring...the one that we are both wondering if we are likely to ever find.

If you know anything about my wife, it is that she is relentless...and so she quickly directs our family and friends to start stirring around the lake with their feet. We are in a HUGE lake and a huge recreational area consisting of many thousands of gallons of murky water over a clay and sand bottom. My brother in law is starting to quote the rediculous statistics about this ring ever being found again and within thirty seconds, our eldest daughter reaches down and pulls up from the muddy bottom of the lake one platinum and diamond wedding ring stopping my brother in law in mid sentence of his "impossible statistics". The ring was found...My Dearest starts shouting with joy "its a miracle, its a miracle" and all I could think of was the impossibility of this happening on this day when I should ask for a miracle and one that would symbolize my wife's and my commitment to one another. I shouted to my wife who was running to reclaim her ring,

"Honey, remember what we asked for??"

Her face lit up and I think the finding of the ring at that moment became more than just a miracle, it became OUR miracle. A miracle that symbolized that we had lost our way and have been found. A miracle that reminds us to never give up hope. A miracle that tells me that peace and affirmation is sometimes closer than we think and can be delivered just by simply asking for it and affirming that it be done. This is our miracle to build and grow upon. Our miracle to symbolize that we have more work to do together on this Earth...a miracle that strengthens my relationship with my One and Only Love...My Dearest Elizabeth.

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