Another Sleepless Night

Another sleepless night last night but one always worth enduring for my heart and my soul rests with My Dearest, who remains so angry and disappointed with me. Abandonment is the feeling but I go where my heart tells me to go, say what my heart tells me must be said, and give love the way my heart instructs me to.

It is a good feeling to respond in love and to know that love is the only choice...yet certainly a challenge to ignore the fear that tries to creep into the mind when the one you love is pushing you away. My ego has no place in this situation and I give it no power.

I am blessed in this life for all that I have around me which brings me constant joy. I am blessed to be married to my best friend and to be so loved by someone, that she is willing to push through the pain so that we can grow and ultimately try and remain together.

Thank you Spirit for finding me, for filling me, for being my source of strength when I fear that there is none and a source of peace when chaos is everywhere to be found. Thank you Universe for the warmth that fills my heart in even the coldest of moments, just in knowing that this, too shall pass. Thank you God for helping me to accept the things I cannot change while giving me the courage to change the things I can.

I am eternally grateful...and your servant forever more.